My beautiful momma I miss you so very much. I honestly cannot go on without you. I feel as if you are still here but I look for you and your not. My heart is literally shattered! I love you and miss you so very much!!!!! βοΈππ
Momma I never imagined this would happen. I am so very thankful that God Almighty chose you to be my momma. I thank God every day that he gave you to be with me. I love and miss you so very much! My heart is literally broken π πβοΈ
Momma, it’s almost a month that you will be in Heaven. I am so happy for you, yet I am so very sad for myself. I know you are pain free and with all your family that already went home. Daddy, Julie, Jimmy and your Chema, we all miss you so very much. Even the puppies miss you. Olive, your ZoΓ«, Gizmo, and even Toby all act different now that you’re not here. We ALL miss you so very very VERY much!!!!! We love you momma!!!!! πππ₯ΊπβοΈπ¦π»
Momma I love and miss you so very much!!!!!! I don’t know what to do now that you aren’t here!!!!! I love you so so sooooo very much and I miss you more than I can describe! I can’t wait until we are all together in Heaven!!!!!!!βοΈππ»ππ₯Ίπ¦ππ
Momma I love and miss you oh so much!!!!!! We have been through so much since you have been gone. Jimmy actually came to the house and was here like 3 days! He calls to check up on us every single day! Unfortunately dad, Julie and I got corona. We are over it thank God! There are so many things I want to tell you. I love you and I miss you soooooo very much!!!!!!!!
Momma, my dear sweet momma. The thing people keep saying is that it gets better with time. I don’t think that is true because it hurts just as bad as day one. Teresa gave me a ride to and from a drs appointment and we had a big heart to heart talk. You really made an impact on a lot of people’s lives. Two months today you went to Heaven. It hurts so bad! We all love and miss you so much momma! I don’t even know what to think anymore. I’m going to see a psychiatrist on the 23rd of this month. Momma im so very lost without you!!!!!!!
Momma it’s been 3 months today that I last saw you alive. My heart still hurts so much. It is truly forever broken π Not a single day goes by that I do not think of you. I love you and miss you so much!!!!! Our family will not be complete until we are all in Heaven together with you! I love you so much momma! It is so hard without you here! I miss you! ππβοΈπ»π―π¦π₯Ίπππ
Momma I wish you were here so I could tell you in person! I love you so very very very much!!!!!! I miss you like crazy!!!!! Julie is going to let me go pick up dad today! Thank you for all the trips you let me drive to Jimmy’s and on the way back! I love you so very much! Well momma, I got to go get dad. I love you sooooo very much!!!!!!!!!! π₯Ίππ¦βοΈπππ»ππ
Momma I missed posting something for you in the 8th of last month. I really and don’t know how because it was Mother’s day. Julie, dad and I thought of you all day. I love and miss you so very much momma!!!!!!π₯Ί Today is the 8th of the month again. I can’t believe you have been gone this long already. π It hurts so bad!!!!! I love you so much momma! I miss you so very much!!!!!! ππ―π»πππ₯πβοΈπ¦π₯Ίπ
Momma I love you and miss you so very much!!!!! I can’t believe it is July 1st already! You have been gone almost half a year already! Daddy, Julie, Jimmy and I have somehow managed to survive this long without you physically here. It is truly by God’s grace although it has been extremely hard! Honestly if I could speak to you just one more time, I don’t think it is possible to let you know how much you mean yo us, how much we love you, how much we miss you, how much we need you!!!!!!! ππ I love you so much momma, I miss you so much also. I just don’t know what to do now that you are not physically here!!!!!πππ₯π¦π₯Ίπ―ππ»ππ»βοΈπ
My beautiful momma! I cannot believe that you have been gone for six months already! It just isn’t right, you weren’t supposed to go so soon! Daddy, Julie, Jimmy and I have missed you so very VERY MUCH!!!!!!! I just cannot believe you are gone! I love you and I miss you so very much! π₯Ίπ¦ I know that I post stuff on my Facebook saying that I miss you so much but people are commenting on it saying that I need to let you rest in peace. I am so very sorry if I’m not! ππ I promise you that I don’t wish to deny you resting in peace. I know you were tired and God wanted you so you went home. I love you and I miss you but I am happy for you momma. π¦ππΌβοΈπ―πππππ»ππ₯Ί
My beautiful momma! I miss you so very much! I think about you and miss you everyday! Yesterday was my birthday, the day you officially became a momma, MY MOMMA! l didn’t write anything here because I was sick and couldn’t see. On my birthday I went into the er at 12:30 am because of my eye i got operated this week. Wonderful Dr. Sponsel went into his office at who knows what time at night and worked a miracle on my eye. I am more than sure Jesus was there and you were too! Julie helped him by holding my head still while he stuck a big needle in my eye and filled my eye with liquid. Julie did such a good job! I am thankful for everything God!!!!!! I am feeling a bit better today, it is still hurting bad but it’s not unbearable anymore. I just wish Julie, Jimmy and daddy would feel better! Either way momma, I love you and miss you so very VERY MUCH!!!!! I will see you soon!!!!!!πβοΈπ¦ππΌπππ₯ππ₯Ίπ»π―
It’s August 8th already. I love you so much momma! I miss you more than you will ever know!!!!!!!! I cannot believe that I haven’t physically seen you or hugged you or given you a kiss in so long! I miss you so much!!!!! I love you with all my heart!!!!!!ππ₯Ίπ¦π»ππΌππ―π₯βοΈ
Well momma, Julies birthday passed and today is daddys birthday. Julie is making dad a supper. She invited Juanita and Ramon, and she invited Teresa and her gang. Dad got out of dailysy and is not feeling good π₯Ί I honestly think he misses you so very much. I know we ALL do! I just feel so lost without you π I joined a Facebook group called Daughters who lost their mothers. I read some of those posts and I feel so bad for them. I know exactly what they are feeling. I know I had posted something there and mentioned that a couple of my friends have told me to let you rest in peace and quit crying over you. I wish those people can physically see me “crying” I look like a faker because I can’t make tears because of my Sjrogrens. I probably look silly “crying” without making tears. Either way, people from this group have told me that I can post, cry, or whatever anytime and as much I want. Either way momma, I will stop typing for now, I gotta help Joy out. I love you and I miss you so very much momma!!!!! πππ₯ΊπππΌπ¦ππ»π₯ππ―βοΈ
Mommasita it’s the 8th again. It been 8 months today that I have seen your beautiful face. I miss you so very much!!!!! Queen Elizabeth II died today. Her son Charles is 73 years old. He was so lucky to have his momma for so long. I honestly STILL cannot believe that you are really gone! I have woken up who knows how many times with the intention to go to your room to tell you good morning. So for like 10 seconds everything feels ok, then it hits me that your not here anymore. Momma I think about you literally all the time. I miss you so much. I love you momma. I cannot wait for us to all be together. I’m still waiting for you to come see me. I love you momma!!!!! π₯ΊπππΌπ₯π¦πππ»ππ―βοΈ
Hey momma, Julie got admitted into University hospital yesterday. Can you please look after her momma! I love and miss you so very very much!!!!! π₯ΊπππΌπ¦πππ₯π»ππ―βοΈππ
Momma I love you soooo much!!!!!!!! I miss you like you wouldn’t even believe! If I could go to Heaven right now to be with you I would!!!!!!! I know I promised you that I would take care of daddy, Julie, Jimmy and all the pets. I am doing that the best that I can! I love you momma! π₯Ίπ»π¦βοΈπ―ππ₯πππΌπ
My sweet momma, today is the 8th again. I miss you soooo much!!!!!!! Not a day, an hour, a moment goes by that I don’t miss you!!!!! So many things have happened since you’ve been gone. It feels like it’s been so very long since you have been here. I just cannot go on without you. I really need you!!!!!! I love you so very much!!!!!!ππππΌπ¦ππ₯Ίπ―βοΈπ»π₯π
Hey momma, I want to saw that I love and miss you so much. Julie rented a house on the beach, actually like on an island thingy where dad can just sit in the back balcony and drop the line right in the water. Ih how i wish you were here. We are going today after Joy gets out of work and are coming back on Monday. Its not going to be the same now that you aren’t here. π₯Ί I love you and I miss you so very very much!!!!!!! P.s. thank you for helping me find my little pink bag that I pack my meds in! π I love you momma!!!!! ππππ₯πππΌπ¦π»π₯Ίπ£π―βοΈ
Mommasita I love you soooo very much! I miss you so much as well! Today is Halloween. We didn’t deck out the yard like we usually do. Julie gave out some candy. I stayed inside with daddy and the dogs watching Monday night football. I love you so much momma. The past couple of days have been busy so im going to bed now. I love and miss you sooooo very much!!!!! π₯ΊππΌβοΈπ―ππ₯π»π¦πππππ
Momma its the 8th again. It doesn’t get easier. I know that I will never get used to you not physically being here. We went to the Zaiontz reunion this past Sunday in Yorktown. It was really nice. They said a prayer for you and everyone we lost the past couple of years. I miss you so much momma! I love you so very much!!!!!!! I cannot believe that time is going by so fast, yet it seems to drag on without you by my side. I love and miss you so much momma!!!!! π₯ΊππΌβοΈπ―ππ₯π»π¦πππππ
Momma I love you sooooo very much!!!!! I miss you sooooo much also!!!!!!! βοΈ Monday the 21st your puppy puppy, your little Gizmo went to Heaven. I’m imagining him going psycho running over the rainbow bridge π straight into your arms!!!!!! π You got another little angel doggy with you now. Yesterday was the anniversary of Jaimes’ death. I’m so sure that yall are up there celebrating Thanksgiving. We are going to have a little meal here on earth. It certainly is not going to be the same without you physically here! π I love and miss you so much momma!!!!! Life is definitely not the same now that you aren’t here. I love you so very much momma!!!!!!! ππ₯ΊβοΈπππΌπ¦π₯πππ―ππ»π₯π
Momma I seriously can’t believe that you have been in Heaven 11 months already! I miss you so very much! Well you got all your chihuahuas with you now that Gizmo left us. I feel as if I’m going crazy. I still can’t really believe that you are not here anymore! I miss you so very much! I love you I love you I love you!!!!!! ππ₯Ίππ₯βοΈππ¦ππ»
My sweet and wonderful momma, I miss you so very much!!!!! I love you with all my heart momma! My heart hurts so much!!!!! π I think of you constantly!!!!! ππ₯Ίππ¦πβοΈππ₯πππ«Άπ»π―π
Momma, my wonderful momma, I love and miss you soo soo soooo much!!!!! Today is our first Christmas with you in Heaven. Ot is definitely NOT the same!!!!!! I miss you so very much!!!!! It is literally so hard without you! We tried to do some of the traditions we always do, but it wasn’t the same without you. I can’t even finish writing this, it’s so hard without you
Momma, my sweet and precious momma, I love and miss you more than words can say! Today is the 31st of December, new years eve, but most importantly, it’s the day that Amma gave birth to you! It’s your 1st birthday up in Heaven! ππ This has been the most horrible, devastating, heart breaking year I have ever been through! I lost you momma! π You were my momma, my best friend and my partner in crime! I miss you so sooooo much!!!!!!! I sometimes feel that I can’t make it without you but then I see dad and I know he needs my help. I know that momma but it’s so hard now that you aren’t here anymore. I want everything to be like it was. So many people have passed away these past couple of years and it is soo soooo hard because they just left holes in our lives. I miss you so much momma. I love you so very very very VERY MUCH!!!!!! I again I am so very sorry for all the times I failed you. I can never forgive myself for things I have done in the past and for things that I will still end up doing. I am so very sorry momma! I love and miss you so very much! If I read my Facebook memories they all say that I love you and that I wouldn’t be able to live without you physically here, yet I am literally having to live without you here! I have you always in my heart but it’s not the same! I talk to you but it’s not the same now that you aren’t physically here. I don’t know how to go on without you! I can’t say it enough, life is not the same without you here! π Since it’s going to be new years, everyone is excited and talking about new years resolutions. I don’t have any. There isn’t a resolution that even peaks my interest in doing. You know how every year we would have the same resolution to lose weight. Well I don’t even know how to do that. I’m taking daddy put to eat everyday because we’ll you know how he absolutely loves doing that but I’m scared he’s going to fall or we are going to catch something. We still wear our masks, but not when we eat. I’m just afraid, but there is really no way to tell dad no. I’m sorry momma! I just don’t know what to do without you here! I love you so very much! All I know is that this horrible year is coming to an end in a couple of hours. I literally just want to go to bed and sleep. I love you so very very much and I miss you more than you will ever know. I LOVE YOU MOMMA!!!!!!!! πππππ₯Ίπππ»βοΈπ«Άπ―π₯π¦π
My sweet and wonderful momma. The anniversary of the absolute hardest day in my life came and went. The anniversary of you leaving us has been so hard and almost unbelievable. It is 3:38 right now on the 9th. I can’t write anymore right now, but I will later. I love you, and I miss you so sooooo very much. π«Άππ―π₯π¦πβοΈπ»πππππ₯Ί
Momma, my sweet and loving Momma. I miss you and I love you sooooo very, VERY much!!!!!! I honestly can’t believe that you are gone!!!!! I wish things were different. I wish I could see you! I love you so much it really and truly hurts! There are so many things that have happened since you went to Heaven! There are so many things I wish I knew and had known!!!!!!!! Momma, my precious and loving Momma, I just want to hug you!!!!! I want to hear your voice!!!!! I want to be with you, momma!!!!!! I love you so very much!!!!!!!! βοΈππ₯Ίππ―πππππ₯π«Άπ¦π»πππππ
My wonderful, beautiful, precious, and loving momma, I miss you more than words can say!!!!!! I love you so very much! There are a lot of things going on in life and I wish I could talk to you!!!!!! I miss you so very much!!!! I honestly still cannot believe you are not here anymore! It’s Valentines day again. π I got Daddy, Julie and Jimmy a little something. I love you so much momma!!!!!!! I can’t wait until we are all together again πππππ―ππ»π«Άππ₯Ίπ¦βοΈπ₯π I love you my wonderful and precious momma!!!!!!!
My beautiful momma! This morning Spike went to Heaven! Jimmy called me before 9 am to tell me that Spike died. I thought it was strange to get a call from him so early in the morning. One be one we are all going to join you momma. I love you more than words can express, and I miss you more and more everyday!!!!!πππ―ππ»ππ₯ΊβοΈπ₯ππ¦π«Άππ
Momma it’s the last day of February. I can’t believe it’s been a whole other month already. I love you sooooo very much! I miss you like crazy! I really wish I could see you, hear you and feel you momma! π₯ΊβοΈπππ₯πππ«Άπππ¦ππ»ππ―
Momma, I can’t believe that you have been in Heaven for 14 months already! I love and miss you so very much!!!!!!!!! Things have changed so much since you left. I don’t know how I can go on without you. I keep myself going for dad. Julie and Jimmy I think would be better off if I wasn’t here after dad passes. For now I am going to psychiatrist and am on more meds. I can’t wait until we are all together. I honestly cannot wait until my life here on earth finishes. Only God knows when we will all be together again. I love you soooo very much!!!!! I miss you so badly! I will see you again soon I hope!!!!!ππππβοΈπ»ππ₯Ίπ«Άππ₯π¦
Momma I am not sure why, but yesterday was a really bad day . I had a telephone appointment with my psychiatrist and I couldn’t stop crying. I felt bad for him because even he got really ‘sad.’ I am just lost still momma. I feel really bad because Julie is feeling really bad right now. She stayed home from work today. Jimmy is sick too. He has really bad allergies or a cold. Dad is really weak right now. He is being hard headed though. I promised you that I would take care if then for you momma so I am. I love you soo very much momma!!!!!! π₯Ί I miss you so much!!!!!! I am completely lost without you!!!!! π₯Ίππ₯ππ«Άππ»βοΈπ¦πππππ―
Momma, my sweet, wonderful and beautiful momma!!!!!!! I miss you so very much!!!!! I love you even more than I miss you!!!!!!!! I don’t know what to wrong with me, I honestly think I am ready to check out of this world. I know that no one will trying miss me. The only thing is. I do not want to leave dad here because he needs me. Once dad goes, I don’t plan to stick around. Julie and Jimmy would be better off if they don’t have to be worrying about stupid me. They won’t have me being a burden. I am just so messed up on my life, it’s not even funny. I feel like going out and doing anything and everything with no regards and no regrets. At least I will be able to sat, I went out with a bang instead of oh well, at least she lived her life, well ummm, yeah, what a life. I’m how old? I take how many medications? Yeah. I have no life, no purpose, I’m just waiting to die. I’m just tired…. I love you momma and I hope to see you really really soon!!!!!!!!! ππ¦π₯Ίπππ₯πππ»ππ―βοΈ
Momma, my sweet and beautiful momma, I miss you more than words can say. I love you so very much! I am so very sorry for everything. I really wish I could be with you right now. I need you so much momma. You kept me sane, you kept me going, you loved me unconditionally. I miss you so very much my sweet momma. Today is the 8th again, you have only been gone 20 months yet it really and truly feels like forever…π₯ΊβοΈπ»ππ¦π―π«Άπππ₯πππ
Momma, it’s the 8th again. I can believe how time actually goes by still. I honestly cannot believe that you are really and truly gone…. So much has changed since you are not here anymore. I wonder if you can see us. You came to Julie last night in her dream. I’m still waiting for a visit from you. So much has happened and is happening. I wish you were here so I could talk to you. I love you and I miss you soo very much momma!!!!!!!!!
Momma, yesterday was the 8th. I thought about you as I do everyday but I didn’t write anything. I’m sorry momma! π₯Ί I love you so very much! I miss you more than I have ever missed anyone before! There is do much that has happened in our lives. I can’t believe that you are gone and aren’t here for it. I honestly cannot wait until we are ALL together in Heaven! I honestly cannot wait for that day!!!!!!!!!! πππ¦π₯Ίπ₯π―ππ»ππβοΈπππ«Ά
Mommasita! Today, actually right now i’m going to fullfull a bucket list thing. Joy, dad are going to see Intocable. Julie bought us tickets to see them! I so wish you were still here with us momma! I love you so much and i miss you like crazy! Rest easy mommasita, I will see you soon! πππ¦π₯Ίπ₯π―ππ»ππβοΈπππ«Ά
Momma, my sweet and beautiful momma, I love you sooooo very much!!!!!!! I miss you more than I can put into words! I can’t believe how quickly the 8th of every month comes by. Never did I ever imagine how the 8th of every month was going to be such a hard day. God took you home! I truly believe that you are resting up in Heaven, praising the Lord our God! I love you so much momma. I miss you so much. I know though, that you are in peace! Until we meet again my sweet momma! π₯Ίπ―πππ»ππ«Άππππͺ½π₯βοΈπ¦π
Momma, I love and miss you so very much! I know you are with our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ! I cried yesterday for you really hard. I am sorry momma. I love you soooooo very much!!!!!!!!!! ππ₯ππ¦ππͺ½ππ«Άπ»ππππ―πβοΈπ₯Ί
Momma, my sweet and beautiful momma, you can’t even imagine how much you are loved and missed. I know it’s the day after Christmas but I KNOW you had a blessed Christmas with Jesus and all our loved one who have passed. I really wish I could pound talk to you about everything going on in life. I love and miss you so soo soooooo much. Till the next time. Bue momma, love you! π₯ΊπππβοΈππ―πππ»π»π«Άππͺ½ππ¦π₯
Momma, it is 3 days away from your birthday. Instead of it being a happy and festive time of the year, it isn’t. We however are extremely grateful to God Almighty, that He gave us you! I love and miss you so very much momma!!!!! π₯π¦ππͺ½ππ«Άπ»πππ―πβοΈππππ₯Ί
Momma, my wonderful and beautiful momma, I love you and I miss you oh so very bad! Today is your birthday. I remember how we would always celebrate your birthday with a coke a cola in a glasse bottle! Momma I miss. I miss you so very much!!!!!!! I love you more that I can express on here. There is so much I would like to actually talk to you about. I don’t know if you can see down here, or if you sent him in my patch, but Julio has become a big part of my life. He’s not perfect, because no one on this earth is, but hes perfect for me. I love him momma, I really do. He asked me to marry him and I want to. I just really wish you could have met him. Momma, I want to wish you were here to talk to me! I miss you so much!!!!!!!!!!! I love you momma!!!!!!!!!!!π₯Ίπππ«Άπ¦βοΈππ―πππ»πππͺ½ππ₯
Momma, my sweet and beautiful momma. I can’t believe that you are gone from us 2 years today. It hurts so much momma. You have missed out on so much. I really wish you were here. We went to the coast today and spent some time sitting on a bench with dad and Julie. We all love and miss you so bad. I can’t wait to go to Heaven Momma! π₯ππ₯Ίππ¦π«ΆβοΈππ―πππ»ππͺ½ππ
Momma, I love and miss you sooooooo much!!!!!!! I wish you were here with me momma! This sounds so strange and I wouldn’t believe it but, I’m getting married! I wish you were here soooo bad!!!!!!! His name is Julio. I really wish I could talk to you momma! I love you so much!!!!!π₯Ίππ«Άπππͺ½ππ¦π»π₯ππ―
It’s the 8th again momma. My sweet and wonderful momma, I love and miss you so very much!!!!! Our lives have changed so drastically since you left. I have been told by a few people that I need to let you rest in peace. I am so very sorry if I am keeping you from doing that. I hope and pray that you are really and truly at peace momma. I love you so very much momma. Things are just not the same with you gone. I love you so much!!!!!!! π₯Ίπ₯ππ¦π«ΆβοΈπππ»ππ»ππ
Momma, my sweet momma, I love you so much and I miss you so much!!!!!!!!!!! Today was Easter Sunday. Today is when Jesus gave his life for us so that we can all be reunited in Heaven! I know this was Minnie’s favorite time of the year because all her hard work making cascarones would pay off. I’m not sure if Teresa made and sold eggs this year. I didn’t see dad, Julie or Jimmy today. I went to spend time with Julio. Dad and Julie went to Victoria. I love and miss you momma!!!!!! π€’πππ«Άπ¦π₯ΊπβοΈπ
Momma, it’s a boy! I remember you telling me that the dr said Jim would be a girl, then he came out as your baby boy !!!!!! Man how woulda be able to live like over. There are so many things I would change. Momma, I’m going to close now. I love and miss you soii very much!!!!!!!!!ππ₯Ίπ¦πππππ«Άπ₯π»πͺ½ποΈβοΈπ I love you momma!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Momma, I didn’t write to you yesterday. I’m sorry momma! I remembered but I didn’t get a chance to write you. I miss you sooooo much every single day. Some days it is harder than others yet I know that everyday that passes is on borrowed time with daddy. I cannot even imagine how much more life is going to change with both of y’all gone. I don’t think it’s going to go very good. I’m just saying. It seems like the time is dragging on. I want time to go faster s I can see you again, but at the same time, I wish tie would slow down for dad’s sake, for Julie and Jim the furbabies and then of course, my Julio. I swear, my mind is all messed up missing you so much! I honestly can’t believe that you are actually gone! I love and miss you sooooo very much!!!!!!!!!ππ₯Ίπ¦πππππ«Άπ₯π»πͺ½ποΈβοΈπ I love you momma!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Momma, my sweet and beautiful momma, I miss you oh so bad! I wish I had you by my side still. I know the Lord our God was ready for you. I really need you though. It is crazy how so many things have happened ever since you went away. You were called to Heaven, but you still live our hearts. I am so eternally grateful that the Lord chose you to be my momma. I love you and miss you sooooo very much!!!!!!!π₯Ίππ₯πβοΈπποΈπππ¦π»πππͺ½ππΎπ―οΈ
Momma, my sweet and beautiful momma. I know you are having a wonderful time in Heaven! I know I sound selfish when I say that I wish you were still here. It’s because I miss you sooooo much much and I love you too much and very good. I still remember you used to say that. Every day that goes by is one day closer that we will meet again!!!!!!!!! I love you so so sooooo very much!!!!!!! I love yoy!!!!!!!!!!πποΈβοΈππ₯Ίπ―οΈππΌπΎππͺ½ππ»π
Momma, my sweet momma, I miss you so soo soooo much! i am still lost without you! I need to talk to you so bad, I need your advise, your love and just you!!!! I though things were getting better since Julio came into my life, but all of a sudden things took a turn worst. I am not going to put our business on here, but I believe you know what is going on. I am sorry momma but I think he needs me. I am-sorry and I know that i need to take care of myself but he is my husband and I know Julie doesnt agree with me but you taught me that marriage is forever and thats how i am taking it. I cant believe another month has crept by but the way I see it, is im one more month closer till I see you again momma. I love you so very much and I miss you soooo soooooooo bad.
Momma, my sweet sweet momma. Life has changed so much since you left us. its just so hard to really and truly move on knowing that you are not here and wont be coming back. Never did I ever imagine having t0 live without you right here with us. I have tried to commit suicide a couple times. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I know that God does not forgive suicide and I wouldn’t go with you. My mind is just too messed up and your not here to knock some sense into me. I love and miss you so very much momma!!!!!! well momma, I guess I will be trying to find sign to know you are ok, that your listening and that i’m doing things right. I will hopefully be seeing you momma. I love you and miss you so very very much, :'(
My momma, my sweet sweet momma! I miss you so very much! I still can’t figure out how to live without you here. This world got completely changed when you left. I know I can still technically talk to you, but I can’t hear your sweet voice answer me. π I don’t know what to do. It’s something that you experienced losing Amma and now I lost my momma. I know you are happy, pain free, with your momma, oh how I wish I could be there with you! I would give up this life in a half a heart beat to be with you. I love and miss you sooooo very much. I love and miss you more than you would ever know! I am 100% lost without you. Momma I love you so very much. I can’t believe still that you are really gone. Until we meet again, I will be missing you every single day. I love you momma! ππ»ππ¦βοΈπΎπ₯ΊποΈπ₯ππ½ππ«Άπ½πΌππͺ½ππ―οΈπ
Momma, my sweet sweet momma, I don’t know what to do anymore.. π₯Ί I literally am so so lost without you here. I am so completely lost right now and I don’t see a way out. I know that I have told you before and I have cried to you almost every day about my situation. I don’t know what I can do. Daddy, Julie and Jimmy are ok for the most part. They have their health problems but seem to be ok, thank God! I am just so very lost. You know that things haven’t been easy with this marriage. I am not sure if he doesn’t really love me, if he is just interested in help with his papers or if he is just so damaged from his life that he is so distrustful in another person which makes him treat me like crap! I honestly don’t know what to think! When I said I love him, I really 100% mean it. Momma you know that I would never, ever cheat on him! You know I would not ever do that! For some reason he thinks I do, and that I constantly cheat on him! You know me more that anyone mom, that I WOULD NEVER EVER CHEAT ON HIM! I do not understand how he actually thinks that I cheat on him. Momma you and God Almighty KNOW that I would NEVER cheat! He tells me that he has a personal relationship with God. I think that is really awesome. The thing that I don’t get is, he says he has talks with God. I think that is awesome. What I don’t or can’t understand is how God literally talks to him directly. Like a normal conversation and that God tells him lies about me. I have not and will not EVER cheat on him yet God supposedly told him that I have and that God wants me to admit to Julio that I have, even though I haven’t! I told Julio that I am 100% faithful and that me and you talked about it all my life how when a person gets married, marriage is for life! Momma, I need you here with me so bad! I tried to go with you several times but I didn’t die! I don’t know what to do! I need you so much! I don’t know why God needed to call you home when he did. I am so so lost and completely scared without you here momma!π Julio needs help, I try to give him all the help I can. What no one understands is that he needs me. But what no one including him, don’t understand is that I am not whole. I am not complete. When you left momma, part of me went with you. I don’t know what to do. I love Julio, but I don’t know how or why he doesn’t love me. He will tell me he loves me, then the very next minute he will tell me that he hates me and wants to disappear from my life. I honestly do not know what to think, or what to do! Please momma, as much as I would love to see you in my dreams, can you please come to Julio in his dreams and seriously talk to him to get him to open up to you. Please momma, can you please help him somehow! I love you so very much and I miss you more than ever! ππ₯ππ¦π₯ΊβοΈπ»ππ½ποΈππΎππ―οΈ
Momma, my sweet momma, I need you soooooo much right now!!!!!!!!!! I don’t know what to do! I need your advice, I literally need you to hug me and tell me that it is going to be ok! I am so lost right now! Momma I need you!!!!!!!!! I am at a really bad time in my life. This year should be a good year, not as good as when you were here, but it is my first year of my marriage. I am so very lost, alone and scared. I do not know what to do! Please momma,talk to God and ask Him to wrap his arm around daddy, Julie, Jimmy, my Julio and ALL of our pets. Please momma, we need all the help we can get! I honestly don’t care what happens to me, but daddy, Julie, Jimmy, Julio and all our pets are all that I have left in this world. For now I still have my memory of you, and that makes me not feel so alone. I want to apologize for crying out to you. Julie, the smart one of the family, tells me I should leave you alone. Doesn’t she understand that you and I talked about everything! I am sorry if I am bothering you momma. I am truly sorry.π I need all the help I can get right now. Things are not good right now and I really and truly do not know what to do. I love you so much and I miss you too! πβοΈππ₯Ίπͺ½π¦πππ₯ππ»π―οΈπππ«Ά
Momma, my sweet momma, I miss you so much and I love you soooo soooooo soooooo I much!!!!!!!!!:I honestly don’t know what to do as anymore. πππ―οΈπ₯ππ₯Ίππͺ½π¦βοΈπππ«Άπ»π
Momma, my sweet momma. Today is the 8th again. It literally does not get any easier as time passes. I love and miss you so very VERY much! Today I’m going to move everything out of me and Julio’s house. I love and miss you so very much momma. I don’t know what to do without you! I love and miss you so soo sooo much!!!!!!!!ππ₯Ίπππ₯πβοΈππ¦π«Άπ»πππͺ½π―οΈ
My sweet sweet nomma, i love and miss you more than words can say!!!!!! Well today is another Christmas for you in Heaven! I bet it is so wonderfull to actually be in the presence of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ! I cannot wait until we are all together again! it is going ot be so wondeful. Happy birthday to our Lord and Savior! I love and miss you so much momma! i can barly function correctly without you, i jove you so ver much momma! !!!!!!!!!!
Merry Christmas momma!!!!!!!!!!!! I love and miss you so very VERY much!!!!!!!!!!!!!! π₯Ήπππ₯ππβοΈβπ ππ₯Ίπͺ½βοΈππ»πβοΈπΎπ―οΈππ¦πποΈπ
Momma, my sweet sweet and loving momma. Happy birthday momma. I love you so so sooooooo much! I miss you more and more everyday. I am going to bed before midnight. It’s 11 pm. Everyone is popping fireworks, Joy is heading to bed, dad is asleep waiting for dialysis and Jim is more than likely at home sleeping. I’m alone tonight because Julio can’t be here. I’m sorry for everything that has gone on this year without you. I need you do much momma. I love you more than you will ever know. Happy birthday again momma and I really and truly hope we will be together in Heaven soon! I love you!!!!!!!! π₯ποΈππ₯Ίπππ―οΈπ»πππ¦π«Άπͺ½πβοΈπ
Momma, my sweet sweet momma. Today marks 3 whole years that God took you to Heaven. We all miss and love you so very much ””” There are no words adequate enough to describe how much we love and miss you!!!!!!!!!! Three years today but it already feels like an eternity without you!!!!!!!! You have missed so much in our lives. I know you are by our sides guiding us. I love and miss you so soo SOOO much my momma!!!!!Β‘!!!!!!!!!!!! π«ΆβοΈπππ―οΈπ»ππͺ½π₯ΊπππποΈπ¦π πΎ
I love you so much momma, my sweet sweet momma!!!!!!!!!!!!! Today marks 3 whole years that God took you to Heaven. We all miss and love you so very much ””” There are no words adequate enough to describe how much we love and miss you!!!!!!!!!! Three years today but it already feels like an eternity without you!!!!!!!! You have missed so much in our lives. I know you are by our sides guiding us. I love and miss you so soo SOOO much my momma!!!!!Β‘!!!!!!!!!!!! π«ΆβοΈπππ―οΈπ»ππͺ½π₯ΊπππποΈπ¦π πΎ
Momma, my sweet, beautiful loving momma I miss you and love you so very much!!!!!!! This are still so hard without you here! I miss you tremendously!!!!!! If I had the chance to choose to just see one person for the rest of my life,, I would choose you!!!!!!!!!! π₯Ίπͺ½πππ₯π«ΆβοΈπππ¦πποΈπππποΈππ―οΈπΆποΈπ»
Momma, my sweet and beautiful momma, I love and you so soo SOOO much!!!!!!!! I have a huge favor to ask you. I need you to please talk to Jesus and tell Him to please watch over daddy. Today he is looking to have the he same procedure that took you away from us! I am so scared and worried about dad. Please petition God to please let dad make it through this surgery and continue to stay with us here on earth. I know that God will is what will be done but I hope that God’s will is to keep daddy with us longer. I love and miss you so much momma. I saw you, Minnie and Browser in my dream right before waking up. I can’t wait to see you again momma! π₯ΊπβοΈπππ¦πͺ½ππ₯πποΈπ―οΈπ«Άππ»π
Momma, my sweet momma I miss your so very bad I love you so very much!!!!! I had eye surgery to 2 days ago and can’t see what I’m typing so there are probably a lot of mistakes. Today is Saturday the 8th of the month. On s Saturday the 8th you were to Heaven. Not a day goes by the er don’t think of you and miss you SOOO soooooo much!!!!! I love you my beautiful momma!!!!!!!!!ποΈππποΈππ₯πͺ½πͺ½ππ¦πβοΈπ»π―οΈπππ
Momma, my sweet momma, I love and miss you so soo SOOO very much!!!! Its kinda hard for me to see and I hope I’m not making too many mistakes. I love you and miss you SOOO very very VERY MUCH!!!!!!!! I can’t believe it is the 8th again. Time is flying by fast but not fast enough. I’m so scared for dad. His health is not good. Julie is taking good care of Dad and me too. Jimmy is even coming up here every week and takes care of Dad and me too. I wish he would have came down when you were here π’ I hope you know how much we ALL love and miss you so. I cannot wait for the day that I will see you again. For the past couple of days, I wake up or even s random thought crosses my mind that I am going to tell you or show you something, then I realized that I can’t because you are on Heaven! I’m so sorry to or all of the tiles that I let you down or disappointed you. I’m so sorry and I love you so very much momma. Until we meet again.πποΈππ₯π―οΈπππ¦πβοΈπͺ½π»πππ₯Ί
Momma, I miss you so very muΓ§h and I love you so very much!!!!!!:The 8th of every month comes fast. I still can’t believe that you are really gone I can’t wait until we are all together again. Dad isn’t doing too great, Julie really is doing pretty much everything for him and me. Jim has really been good about coming here to help out with dad. We all love and miss you sooooo very much! With you not here, I am so lost. I don’t have anyone to talk to about what’s going on with my life. You vare loved and missed more than you know momma. Julio tells me that his. Momma tells him not to cry and be depressed we over the sudden loss of his big brother that died in 2018. She told him that everyone who died is holding a candle. Everytime someone prays for then, and remembers the or talks good about them and had happy/good thoughts of them, their candle shines brighter. He told t what hat his mom told him that when we are crying, sad or if you forget about the person, their candles get dimmer and dimmer. She told him all that he told me that because he has seen me crying for you several times. He prayed with me for you. He told me that I need to be happy because I’m still alive and even though I have a lot of problems, I need to talk God and live the life He gave me. He’s in jail still and will probably, actually will be deported. So my life is a mess right now. I wish I could just go with you and we’ll, pretty much run away from everyone. I can’t wait for all ii of us to be reunited and not have any problems with anything. I just wish it was 100 years from now and we were all together in Heaven! Either way momma, I will see you soon I hope!!!!!π₯Ίπ¦ππ½π»βοΈπ«Άπ½πποΈπ―οΈπππ₯
Momma, I love and miss you so very much! I’m not sure if I am typing right, because I can’t see good. I hope this prediction text thing word good. I wish you were here so much. My life is a wreck and I don’t know how to fix it. I need you here to help me e. You can’t imagine how much you are loved and missed!!!!!!!!!!!! Momma I want to go with you so that u don’t have to be here disappointing everybody. My like is a a wreck. My mind is a wreck. Please come to me in my dress and take me when you!!!;;;;;;;;;!!!!!! ,ππππππππππππππ»ποΈππ¦ππ½βοΈπ«Άπ½ππ―οΈππ₯
Momma my sweet momma π I love and miss you so very much! It’s all so very unreal that I you are really gone. I miss you soo much! I am just typing this out but literally can’t see.. I hope i.m not messing up too much. I just wish I could be there with you. This life is not going good and I want to go with you. I just don’t know what to think or what to do. I honestly feel like a huge burden on joy. Yeah I help out s little bit with dad n but I can’t even ho yo the fridge and makes myself a sandwich because I can’t even see good enough. Ss it is, it’s already g0nna be 2pm and I haven’t we veb eaten anything. Poor joy is sick, dad is sick even Jim is sick. Oitd just s bad time at the Rangel I house.. Well momma, Well momma, I love you so muchomma I miss you so bad. The fr should be calling me soon do I’ll talk to you later momma I love you so very much β€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈπ₯Ήππ₯π»ποΈπ¦ππ½ππ½βοΈπ«Άπ½ππ―οΈπ
I wish I could be with you right now!!!!!!!!